work is hard sometimes

Some days you really want to say "Take this job and shove it" only because you are so overworked and underpaid. I really should be thankful to have such a good job. I am lucky to be here and lucky to have great benefits and lucky to work with good people and lucky to work great hours. Ok, I feel better.
This morning in my seminary class we were studying the commandment to keep records and so I shared some things from my middle and high school journals with the students. Apparently it was much too interesting for them because the rest of the lesson was shot. I have never seen them so interested in reading. Why is it that they can "feast" on my silly words just to find a little dirt on me, but they don't have "time" to study the scriptures...which are essentially journals! Ah me.
Well, I have been having a fun time with a long distance flirt named Justin. I can use his name since he lives way out west. Justin is one of Sam's friends. They worked together for a while. He is all good...except for the whole "Never will meet him because he lives too far away" thing. But he tells me I am beautiful and I really want to believe him. Girls are girls and we never truly let go of our fairy tale dreams.

It's been a long time since I have been on a date. I went on one over Thanksgiving...well technically I went on two dates with the same guy. I will call him Baltimore. He was very nice and very mormon and a divorcee with 2 little girls. His girls were SOOOOO cute. He wasn't much to look at though. He was alright, but he lives up in Buffalo (I was up there visiting family). I wasn't attracted to him at all. Not intellectually or physically. Since then I have pretty much just hung out with Golf..as friends and just fantasized that maybe we'll get back together. How lame am I? I have decided that I need to take some serious action if I expect to ever find an appropriate man. My plan is to move away to Arizona in the summer. I have a couple aunts and my grandmother and a bunch of cousins and two best friends there. There are 2 things that need to happen for me to go. First I have to get permission from Ellie's dad to move her out of the state and second I need to find a job that pays enough to cover the cost of living out there. Yesterday I asked my boss to promote me from a regular secretary to a legal secretary. It was terrifying, but I have been wanting to ask for months and I figured that since yesterday was my 1 year anniversary of working for him, it would be as good a time as any. He will have to talk to the county administrator about it. The county administrator is a friend of mine, but that is no guarantee that he'll approve it. Today I got a lot of shopping done. My goal is to finish it in time to actually enjoy the rest of the Christmas season. I am excited to have Ellie this year. I also invited a good friend to join us on Christmas morning so that will make it even better. Today is the ex's birthday. I forgot all about it until I was talking to him and he mentioned it!! My friend is having her 6th baby today too!! What an amazing family they have!! Sorry this is so disjointed. I am just not focused on any one thought today. Tonight for a ward activity we are watching "Cars" on blankets in the gym at the church. woo-hoo. It's be fun just because I have the night off from being a mommy. Give a kiss to your mother.